We are who we chose to be

hey y'all

i got kinda bored so i decided to come back!

nothin much has happened since i went away. finally i've gotten over my whole "I wanna die!" phase and im takin a new approach on life. its weird, i see things differently when i act all happy! everything seems so much more fun now and im havin a laugh! 1st year isnt too bad. it sucks knowin dat the whole school tink your so immature and babyish. cant wait 2 be in 2nd year. Ive been seeing this really really REALLY feek guy around tesco! OMG! I LOVE him so much. but unfortunatly i just have to make a fool outa myself every time i see him!! its so like me to trip over sumthin or to knock into sumthin. im the clumsiest person EVER!

anyway, enuf bout me. i got emailed a few cool pics bout illusions and stuff. i cant show ya them cuz i dont know how to paste them onto this entry.

crap i goota go

geez i must have been gone a long time! tabulas sure has changed. no offense to da person who made it but its inda um...crappy! i cant change da colour of my page nd im stuck with this shite one! i dont have much to say except that i might quit posting entries into my blog. no one reads them anyway! its kinda pointless!
this will be my last entry people. hmm...im probably talking 2 myself as usual! oh well, life goes on.
see ya!!
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humph!.......what a depressing week.
i had a fight with my friend ....eh..3 times!
i broke up with my boyfriend
i hate myself
i hate my life
i hate the way nothing goes right for me.

im not acting all depressed and stuff just for attention in case you think i am. well, ill write back when im feeling less empty.

wow,its been a long time since i replied to this with any news.
a lot of things can happen in a span of 2 or 3 months. unfortunatly, nothing much has occured. holidays was great. had a few laughs got a few things. even got a tan! yay for me! my b/f missed me alot and i got a few hugs and kisses from him.
once again im starting school in september. but this time things are gonna be different. for one, im in a new school, im gonna have more teachers, more books,more friends and if im lucky, more boyfriends! nah just kidding!! im happy with what ive got!!!!

well, ill check up in a few days if anything interesting has happened.

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ok heres a little poem i got a while ago. its kinda creepy but id like to share it with you! heres how it goes:

*~*~*Sarah*~*~*

My name is Sarah

I am but three,

My eyes are swollen

I cannot see,

I must be stupid

I must be bad,

What else could have made

My daddy so mad?

I wish I were better

I wish I weren't ugly,

Then maybe my mommy

Would still want to hug me.

I can't speak at all

I can't do a wrong

Or else I'm locked up

All the day long.

When I awake I'm all alone

The house is dark

My folks aren't home

When my mommy does come

I'll try and be nice,

So maybe I'll get just

One whipping tonight.

Don't make a sound!

I just heard a car

My daddy is back

From Charlie's Bar.

I hear him curse

My name he calls

I press myself

Against the wall

I try and hide

From his evil eyes

I'm so afraid now

I'm starting to cry

He finds me weeping

He shouts ugly words,

He says its my fault

That he suffers at work.

He slaps me and hits me

And yells at me more,

I finally get free

And I run for the door.

He's already locked it

And I start to bawl,

He takes me and throws me

Against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor

With my bones nearly broken,

And my daddy continues

With more bad words spoken.

"I'm sorry!", I scream

But its now much too late

His face has been twisted

Into unimaginable hate

The hurt and the pain

Again and again

Oh please God, have mercy!

Oh please let it end!

And he finally stops

And heads for the door,

While I lay there motionless

Sprawled on the floor

My name is Sarah

And I am but three,

Tonight my daddy

Murdered me.

isnt that really creepy!!